I just found out that my crush is not available. My friend helped me ask another friend who knows my crush to ask him whether or not he already has a girlfriend. And the answer was that he's not available.
Wow. Aku dah lama takde crush. Tak buat apa2 lagi dah heartbroken. Haha. If I were to describe how I'm feeling right now, it would be that I'm sad but not completely heartbroken? It was a very short-lived crush. At this point of time, I still haven't decided whether I actually like him or I'm just infatuated with him. I hope it's just infatuation and I can just move on. Putting aside how I feel about him, I think he's a good friend and a great conversation partner so yeah, all's good maybe?
To be honest, this is all very exhausting. Getting to know a person is exhausting. The overthinking and the fantasies of what it's like if he were to like me back. I feel like I'm 15 again. And being 15 was not a good time in my life that I'd like to remember.
Haih apa2 lah. Hidup mesti diteruskan.
