Syazana tak nak member ngan aku dah. She wants to be acquaintances which is stupid because we’re already way past that point. If she doesn't want to have anything to do with me anymore just cut ties la. So I told her im going to unfollow her on all socmed platforms but she can still reach out on whatsapp or imessage me or something. She made it seem like I’m such a horrible person. She said she knows she can be a lot to put up with and thanks for putting up with her but she can't put up with me anymore. I'm so sad and so angry and so frustrated. She’s making a very big deal out of this and tells me she doesn't care anymore. She said I'm petty and that I always belittle her. She kept it to herself and it snowballed and now she’s just happier without me in her life. I don't understand people who focus too much on people’s bad behaviours. It's not like you never hurt me before. But I let go and moved passed it. You really wanna throw out 15 years of friendship just because I asked whether you can afford to take care of your cat. You're the one who quit your job because of some guy. You're the one who can't keep a job. Why is everything everyone else’s fault? I apologized to you and didn't bring up all the bad stuff but you didn't apologize back and you continued to insult me semua dengan alasan ‘kau yang tanya’. I asked you to stop being a people pleaser not turn into a fucking stone. Dengan 'sorry sorry' kau pestu continue to insult me and 'malas la malas la' kau tu. Kau malas kau hidup sorang je la sampai kau mati.
Aku paling tak tahan kau bring up pasal acap. Kau siapa? Kau tak payah comment pasal marriage orang la. Kau pon belum kahwin. Kau mana nampak all the times aku buat salah kat acap or all the times acap buat salah kat aku, kau mana nampak all the times we had to apologize to each other so tak payah nak suruh aku jaga dia bagai. Like no one fuckin asked for your advice?? Don't talk about my husband like he’s your friend. He’s not your friend and you know nothing about my marriage. Stop projecting your insecurities on me.
She also said that she’s happier now eventho her life is mostly the same. Uwais still tak nak dia, dia still jobhunting and still gaduh ngan family. Sedih do. It feels like she’s saying I'm the reason she felt so miserable before.
That's it. I'm moving on and I'm letting her go. She did me a favour to be honest.
