It all happened so fast that I still can't even comprehend it.
Last 2 Fridays, abah called and told me that Yasayan Peneraju Pendidikan Bumiputera was recruiting students to apply for their PPAM (Peneraju Professional Akauntan Muda) programme . I was like 'what? kena ke?' but my wonderful dad tried to convince me that it was a good opportunity and insists that I try it out. So I did. And the thing he most emphasized on was that 'elaun sebulan rm550 you know'. You see, my dad is kind of in a financially tight situation right now since my sister who's currently studying in Melbourne, doing her Masters, was not able to land a scholarhship (so terpaksa self-sponsor). But my sister is planning to pay back kat ayah aku la bila dah kerja nanti. And maybe dia akan cuba cari scholarship lain while studying.
So ok la, aku ikut cakap ayah aku and tried to understand and like he said, it is a good oppurtunity. Weekend tu, kumpul2 documents semua and terus submit. Hari selasa terus dipanggil interview. There was also an English and Maths assessment test. Lepas interview dia terus bagi result. and whaddaya know. I got it (alhamdulillah). Interview tu serious tak macam interview sangat. Org tu yang banyak cakap. Aku hanya mengiyakan. haha
Candidates ada 4 je and semua dapat. Takde competition I guess and peneraju memang nak orang kot. Actually based on my observation, not many malays are willing to study in Sunway la, even on a scholarship. Sebab memang mostly chinese and sangat sosial (based on my 3 days experience here haha). They're not bad people. Tapi disebabkan aku ni ex-iium, so nampak ketara sangat la perbezaan dia. Aku ada jumpe scholar Mara, studying the same programme as me tapi dia June intake. Dia kata Mara ada bagi offer buat ACCA kat sunway kat 11 orang tak silap and only 4 people accepted. nampak tak?
Anyway, after the interview, I had to quickly make a decision to accept the offer or not. Trust me, I thought a lot about it, malam tu pon tidur pukul 3. Aku fikir yang aku patut accept la because its ACCA man. jangan main2. almost fully sponsored, dapat kurangkan beban ayah aku haha. and I also kind of want to try out at a new place. Rasa macam uia tu comfort zone sangat. Dah la dapat 2 tahun foundation, laaagi la relax. Ok bukan la tak bersyukur tapiiii ntah la susah nak cakap. Aku takut jadi spoiled you know, nanti masuk degree terkejut pulak. The next day, aku skip kelas accounting, pergi CFS one stop centre untuk settlekan things utk withdraw. That took a few days jugak. Kena jumpa department tu department ni. And elaun yang dapat untuk sem ni kena bayar balik T_T sbb tak habis sem lagi. Redha je . Hari jumaat tu, pergi outing dengan classmates (tak pernah pergi outing dengan diorang ok haha). Salam2, peluk2, tangkap2 gambar. Esoknya terus ciao. T_T
the next week on Monday, datang Sunway, settlekan agreement semua. Then on Wednesday baru masuk dia punya hostel and ada orientation dia sekali. Masa tengahari tu Accounting Club ada buat ice breaking sikit la untuk new intake ni. Main game je memanjang. Aku rasa macam mengarut gila, Suruh menari, menyanyi, punishment game kena chicken dance, main rock-paper-scissors, duduk laki pompuan dekat2. I was like, OKAAAAY.. Ada la part yang interesting, but in the end rasa useless jugak. Tak berkesan untuk memecahkan ice sangat pon.
On Thursday dah start kelas. Class aku ada 14 orang and 3 orang je Melayu. 4 Indian and the rest are Chinese. They're very nice, friendly and hard-working people. Tapi mungkin ice tu belum betul2 break lagi..
For those who don't know, ACCA stands for Association of Chartered Certified Accountant. but because I don't officially have any basics in Accounting (belajar sikit2 kat UIA je), kena ambil CAT (Certified Accounting Technician) dulu which is like Foundation in Accounting. Selalunya ACCA ni orang ambil lepas degree. Tapi takpe la, tak perlu ikut orang kan. ACCA is actually not a degree but almost the same level. If you want a degree, you have to get good results then they'll let you write a thesis to be submitted to Oxford Brookes University so kalau ok, boleh dapat degree drpd Oxford Brookes tu la, iAllah.
Benda yang paling sedih untuk tinggalkan kat UIA is tarbiyyah and suasana dia. Kat UIA program2 tarbiyyah almost setiap malam ada. Tak susah nak cari. And suasana dia buat kau nak jadi baik. Sentiasa akan ada support. Not that kat Sunway is the opposite tapi frequency dia memang undeniably kurang. Kena pandai jaga diri. Tapi ye la, in life, when you get something, for some reason, you're sure to lose something else. You just can't have everything. And that is for the best. Sunatullah. Allah knows what He's doing since He created us and He knows what's best for us.
Aku harapkan satu je bila pindah ni, supaya aku, islam, dakwah dan tarbiyyah takkan terpisah. Because without Allah, without islam, without tarbiyyah, anything else won't have any meaning. Jadi aku sangat2 berharap supaya aku tak lalai, tak futur dan tak sampai satu tahap dimana aku rasa terbeban untuk meneruskan dakwah dan tarbiyyah. Ameen!
