For some people, talking in front of an audience comes naturally for them. I'm not one of those people.
I'm one of those people that have to actually take a few minutes to gather all my courage and pour it in one single presentation. I'm the type that repeats a few times the things I want to say in my head before saying them out loud. I plan these things. Because if I don't, I'll panic.
I admit I do get jealous of those people that can simply grab a mic and talk. At first, it was admiration. Later on, it becomes envy and I feel so pathetic. I feel like I'm not good enough.
What can I do to get rid of these feelings?
Practice.
It's not as easy as it sounds but there's no short-cut in achieving something.
Actually, the one thing I'm afraid of is the audience. I don't know if I can handle what 'the people' might say. That's why it's so hard to even try sometimes.
But really, who am I trying to impress? The people or the One?
Yang penting bukanlah level kita di mata manusia tapi level kita di mata Allah kan?
