Always there.

Its not Allah that leaves us, it's us humans that leave Him and turn away.

Sabda Rasulullah
Allah Berfirman.... Wahai hambaKu, ketahuilah bahawa Aku sentiasa berada dalam sangkaanmu, dan Aku ada bersamamu ketika kamu menyebutKu. Bila kamu menyebut-Ku dalam dirimu, Aku menyebutmu dalam Diri-Ku. Bila kamu menyebut-Ku dalam khalayak ramai, Aku menyebutmu dalam khalayak yang lebih baik daripada itu. Bila kamu mendekat kepada-Ku satu jengkal, Aku mendekat kepadamu satu hasta. Bila kamu mendekat kepada-Ku satu hasta, Aku mendekat kepadamu satu depa. Bila kamu datang kepada-Ku dengan berjalan kaki, Aku datang kepadamu berlari-lari. (Riwayat Bukhari)

If we walk towards Allah, He runs to us. =')
He's always there for us, always waiting for us to get back to Him if we've gone astray.
He is The Most Forgiving and The Most Merciful.
It is never too late to turn back to Allah.
It will only be too late when it's the end of your life.
And if you've already repented and still make mistakes, just repent again!
Check your intentions and do things wholeheartedly because of Allah.

May Allah guide us all to the right path.
Ameen.

Time changes everyone.

Tak sangka aku dah hidup selama 16 tahun dan 7 bulan. Rasa macam budak-budak lagi. Rasa macam tak cukup matang. Rasa macam tak bersedia nak keluar sekolah. Rasa macam masih tak cukup yakin dan tak cukup pengamalan untuk berhadapan dengan society yang... agak menakutkan dan sangat mencabar.

Setiap hari umurku semaking meningkat, aku lihat semua perubahan2 yang berlaku di sekelilingku... benda2 kecik macam brand handphone yang mak ayah aku pakai sampailah benda2 besar macam perubahan kawan2 aku yang dah lama tak jumpa or something like that.

We grow older, friends change, we see the things we see everyday differently, we think differently, our interests change and so on and so forth. Honestly, I'm at my wits end in figuring out what my future is going to be like. I don't know what I want. Of course, I want to be a good person. I want to chase Jannah. I want to marry a good person and be a good wife and mom. I want to continue giving and bringing good to this world. But once I'm out of school... I'm not sure I can do it alone. I know I have my friends with me, but there some things in this world that we just gotta figure it out ourselves. We may need others' help (and I have awesome friends and family that are happy to help me out) but in the end...it's our decision.

It's our life. We, ourselves, choose where its heading.
Right?

Ya Allah, please help me make the right decisions.
Ameen.